A New Chapter of Life

My sobbing and secluding myself from everyone has gotten me no where in life. And that's why, I'm moving on. I am currently a bachelor again, and I'm not proud of it. I love Jaina a lot, but all I can do is just give her the spacethat she needs. I have been doing too much right now, and I'm realizing this. I'm only pushing her further and further away from me. It's just as of right now, we're not feeling that same connection. I wish I could make it up to her, and I'm slowly doing this.

I'm really glad that we ended up on good terms because I can talk to her about anything. She has always been a best friend and someone that has always been there for me for these past couple of years together. And I'll be returning the favor. I love her to death, and even if we end up as being just friends is better than not having her in my life at all. Will this story end up happy ever after? Only time will tell the future of this outcome.

But as I got home from work, I had to tell my mom the news about Jaina and I's recent split. It was tear dropping for me. As much as I had to say it, I didn't want to because I wanted to hold on to her so much. But after talking with her, she relaxed me and told me it wasn't the end of the world. That's really what I wanted to hear from her. The comfort of a loving mother, how I love her dearly. Anyways, she had told me that this is just something that I must overcome in order to become a stronger individual. Just one of many challenges life has to offer. So far, I'm holding my ground, and I'm letting go of something I held on to tightly. As she moves on, I shall also. Come to think about it, I'm still at a young age of 22. We have plenty of time on our hands, and time will tell.

What's next for me? I just have to move on. Sometimes, things happen for a reason, and time is the only cure for it. I'll always keep in contact with my ex-fiancee/best friend. And I can always talk to her about anything. From everyone else, thank you for the love and support for getting me through this tough time. I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart, as it's slowly trying to rebuild.

To Jaina: I hope things will work out for the best. I know that I haven't always done the brightest things, but I try hard to make-up for them. This time, it'll take some time to work out, and I understand your decision. You will always have and be in my heart. I'll always be here for you know matter what. You know who to talk to. It's hard to let go, and I'll definitely be missing all the good memories. But, I know that we'll continue to talk in the long run. I miss you so much and love your with all my hearts content.

Life is an obstacle. We must overcome them to be STRONGER individuals.