We take LIFE for granted

Last night at work, Maureen, a co-worker of mine over at The Home Depot apologized for bailing on me with the limo for Kylene's b-day. I told her that it was no problem at all and I was wondering where she was for the past week or so. Then she told me this story that just melted my heart away. It was terrible. Here's how it goes:

She was at work on a Friday night, but misses a phone call. She checks her voicemail and hears that her girlfriend needs help. So she gets up and tells the closing manager that she needs to leave right away.

So here's what happened to Maureen's girlfriend Juanita. I believe Juanita was driving home from a day of work, stopping at red lights and being very cautious. She was by the 52 freeway and she caught a green light. So she went, then out of nowhere, this black Mazda Miata comes speeding out of the dark and t-bones her 2000 Toyota Tacoma causing her to spin out, hit the railing of the freeway exit, which caused her truck to roll, and then hit a freeway sign that caused her to stop.

The person driving the Mazda Miata also had a passenger with him. And guess what this jackass did? After he had hit her, he was thinking about hitting and running, but his car wouldn't allow him to. He stopped about a mile away and called a 'tow truck'. He didn't even to think to call 911. And the tow truck arrived before the police came.

Back to Juanita, she described the hit as a monster hitting her. Luckily, a homeless man heard it and also had his campsite near by. He came out to see what had happened and immediately did what he could. He pulled back the door of the driver's side and pulled her out. To my surprise, he also had a cell phone and had called 911.

After seeing the aftermath of the damage that had been done, her what was brand new 2000 red Tacoma Truck has major damage to the front end, etc, etc.

Maureen was telling me that when Juanita was at the hospital, they had to operate on her immediately because she had internal bleeding. So they cut her open from the chest down to her belly button and found that blood from her spleen was gushing out. So they had to remove her spleen. Her left arm also was badly damaged. Her skin was flapping around and you can see her bare flesh.

And yesterday, was Juanita's b-day so Maureen did the nicest things for her. She couldn't function normally because she was in so much pain, so Maureen gave her a bath, cleaned her sheets, painted her nails, and had a nice roast beef dinner. Maureen described the day as celebrating LIFE.

After what had happened, Maureen quit drinking and all the bad habits she was accustomed to. She also told me that her relationship with her had gotten stronger. And she's so appreciative of LIFE. It was an emotional story which caused her to cry, which almost made me tear up.

It's stories like these that make me appreciate LIFE more. I hope the person that hit Juanita get what he deserves because another few minutes at the crash scene, she could have passed away.

These types of stories are so influential, that it's things like these that change the aspect of the things I do in life. I appreciate life more and more, and families aren't just blood, but friends. I appreciate having my girlfriend, my family, my friends, my personal belongings, etc. There's things that I regret doing in life, and things I cherish. I would love to change my bad habits also, and I'm definitely working on it.

Thank God everything is ok.

Live life as if it were your last.

I was totally shocked!!

So here's the story:
Early Wednesday morning, I receive a text from my older cousin Mike regarding the email that he would promise to send me enclosed with links to podcast for my iPhone. Low and behold, another message was included. It was regarding my younger cousin Jen-Jen.

So here's my cousin's text in exact: "Sorry for the delay. Been working a lot. Did u hear jen jen had a kid?!"

The first thing that came to mind was, "WOW!! Really!!" First off, she's really young still. About 14-15 years old, not really sure since I haven't really hung out with my dad's side of the family. But I know that she's still in high school. I was really shocked when I heard this. I told my girl about it since she was watching television next to me. And I had told her that it resembled of when my cousin Claire got pregnant at that age. I understand that young women at that age are promiscuous, but really!! At that young of a age!?

I guess you can say the same about me, but I would never have the intentions of making a little person in someone. I'm seriously not ready to have a kid, coming from friends having them at a young age. It's just CRAZY to me!!

Well back on the story. I later ask my cousin who the father was and this is his reply, "Some viet dude that like 25. Don't like him already."

I didn't reply back because I was stunned, upset, and infuriated at the same time. Especially coming from an old as motherfucker like that!? Please excuse my language, but I think this is appropriate. My first thought was, this is against the law and charges should be pressed. It's just not right! My cousin and I agree on one thing, we don't like him. Just the fact that someone of his age to be messing around with a young girl, it's just astounding!

I'm still shocked by this sudden earthquake. I hope she can handle this baby. She's going to have a tough life. Now, she needs family more than ever, and I want to help. Blood is thicker than water, and family stick together, no matter what.

And later, Wednesday evening, we advanced to the 2nd round of Playoffs. Next team, C.O.T.U. Bunch of white folks on that squad. They're tall, but I know we can beat them.

The Rickter scale was off the charts today!!

I Can't....

miss any more days of class. If I do, there my grades will fall tremendously. There's something about school being way too far away from home, or me just be lazy, or just me not prioritizing myself. I guess this lack of motivation is killing me. I think I might be changing my major once more to where I can obtain my degree faster. I don't care what it is, as long as I get out. I'm sick and tired of school and I need to do something about it. I need to start my profession already. And if I'm to be stuck in school for a couple more years, then I need to pick up my pace. I need to get the classes I need in order to graduate. I need to start the new beginning of my life and journey through this world.

"I can't" shouldn't be in my vocabulary, but unfortunately, it is. I need to be more focused. Besides all the grimaces of school, I have managed to use most of my time wisely. Working and studying on my off days. But sometimes, work and school or just unbearable. Just way too much to handle all at the same time.

I'm beginning to wonder, about everything, and what things will motivate me. I should be having this idea of making lots of money out of my profession, starting businesses, possibly turning them into franchises around the world, some things like that. There's so much that I want to do in life, and that I need to do. The next things on my list, a new car and a house. All my motivation in my hands.

I should think like 2Pac, M.O.B.



Sometimes, opportunities need to be worked for, and my abilities need to be exploited and if I do nothing about it, then nothing will sprout. Therefore, I need to work hard and play later.

Well, off to school for another practical. I hope I do well.







All other bones of the body not included which will be.

Got a new phone, but the same phone.

So yesterday, mid-afternoon I left my phone in my car. And from what I'm assuming, the heat from my car, since there is also black leather, the extremity of the heat in my car was just to insane for my phone to handle. I got my phone out after a brief nap and picked it up. I immediately dropped it as the phone was burning hot due to the metal on casing on the back of the phone. So with precaution, I quickly picked up my phone and wrapped it in my shirt for it to cool down and bring into the house.

I see that my phone was shut off so I turned it back on. After turning it on, it froze. I turned the phone on and off with the same outcome, it froze. So I decided to leave my phone off until midnight after I had returned home from Jaina's house. I turned it on, and the same thing happened, but I finally got it t work. Luckily I was able to retrieve all of my numbers.

So early this morning, I had an appointment with Apple concerning my phone. I waited for about 20 minutes after my appointment of 1030, since it was awfully busy. The dude at the desk, Mark, was extremely helpful. He told me that there was somthing wrong with the hard drive, so he offered me to exchange my old phone for a new one. I didn't complain and instantly agreed, since my old phone had scratches on the back and front and this massive dent on the side of my phone.

But the bad thing is that everything I had on my phone is GONE, and I have to do everything over again. Just a long process. But oh well, it's worth it for a new phone. Also got mysef a new USB cord since my other one had loose wires. Great customer service from Apple UTC!

I was sad this morning, but I'm absolutely ecstatic now.

Time To Think of Myself

I have been too over-passive with my careless is sharing and I feel as if I am never rewarded or at least acknowledged for it. It seems like I always have to beg, or defend my case, and when I do, all I get is optimism and negative feedback from others. Things like that lower my self-esteem and decrease my level of interactive performance. I guess it's my halt for not putting my foot down and putting restrictions. But I feel that if I put restrictions, she pressures me, or makes me out to be the person that is just like the last boyfriend. So in conclusion, I'm being walked all over. I have no sense of control over a person, people choose their own destiny. And honestly, all I want to do is help, and I expect the same in return.

I work hard for everything I do, everything I receive, everything I disperse. I feel this sense of insecurity when I'm with my girl at the clubs Downtown. Why? Because 1, I got my heart broken over a promoter, and 2, I feel like something like that could happen again. But can you blame me for acting this way? I hope not. I'm beginning to ponder whether I am a good boyfriend. I feel that I need to stay up on this level. I can't be the person who I was and I need to adapt to who I want to become now, and that is a stronger individual.

I can't blame others, that's just the east way out. I can only blame myself.

A New Swagger!

So overconfidence is actually good. People like overconfidence. If you don't back up your facts, then oveconfidence fades quickly to insecurity. Well, I believe that a swagger is to be earned, and also through networking, but mainly by working hard. That's just my work ethic. And being people-friendly by spelaing your mind and not being shy (like how I used to back in the day).

I believe I have confidence in my abilities performing to the top of my level at my current job every day I'm there. Just overconfident. Anyways, I also think that the clothes that I wear, this new steez is encouraging my self-esteem, building my confidence.

Besides everything, I missed Jasmine's son, Jayson's b-day bash. But I was stuck @ work and totally forgot about it. My friend Ulster reminded me, but I had already took my break. Sorry Jasmine, I totally forgot. If I only see you more @ work. How I miss the days of being a cashier, just talking and having such a good time.

To my buddy Ulster, I miss you bro. Hope all is well in school. Let's grab sushi, or Hooters and hit up some shops.

As far as my love life goes, I couldn't be any happier. My heart is slowly stitching up, and slowly healing. Love is slowly but surely getting to where it belongs, but I can't get too comfortable. I'm always on my toes.

One Love.