Sometimes...

I feel that there's been a love loss. I guess it's because I'm afraid to have me heart shattered again. Remember? I surely could. I felt like staying home, locking myself in my room, and overdosing on some pills. Not a great way to end your life right?

I would never think about doing that, unless something tragically happened, you know what I'm saying. I'm a very emotional person and I think that by expressing your emotions to other individuals, whether they're your close friends and family or not, expressing your emotions will get things off of your chest. Like you can confide in someone and they can tell you what you need or want to know.

Love is incredible and terrible. You can feel like your on top of the world, and the next, in the taverns of burning fire in hell. It's definitely a roller coaster ride.

My "Great Wall of China" is up as a defense mechanism because honestly, I don't want to feel that way again. I'm still upset, still trying to get over it, and still thinking about it. It's hard to believe that something like that would happen. But I guess things happen for a reason.

God puts you through tests in life, and I feel that this definitely molded me into a stronger individual. I take a look at myself in the mirror and see a person I haven't seen before. A more confident individual that won't stop for anyone (depending on the situation of course).

Sometimes I feel that independence and solitarity let's you think about what you want to do with your life. I'm thankful that I'm alive in this world, but I also wish that I could go back in time and do some of the things in the past differently. But all in all, you live and you learn.

That's life.

Now back to studying for my Anatomy & Physiology practical coming up. Wish me luck.




Don't force love, let love come to you.