So if I were your boyfriend, and I helped you get the things you wanted, wouldn't you be doing the same things for me? Money doesn't buy you love, and I should have realized the whole thing years ago. But I didn't care about the money. I cared about her. I made some stupid mistakes, but if you truly loved me, you'd help me instead of leaving me to fend for myself. But I want to thank you for doing that to me because you opened up my eyes to the whole world. I thought of you as my whole world, that's why I did all of those things for you. Buying the things you wanted, supporting all of your decisions to make you happy, surprising you with a painted and full furnished room, a laptop given to you from me that was a birthday present given to me from my mom.
I'm glad that you broke the relationship off because I grew stronger. I know that I shouldn't have been flirting with her, but you didn't help me when you decided to sleep with not 1, but 2 guys. And to see you kissing on another person's neck other than mine, you should be ashamed of what you did to me. You're not the only person that knows how to flirt. But the funny thing was, I was the one that took all of the criticism, and not you. I guess I was afraid of your feisty personality, but this time I had to make a stand for myself. I have been up with too much in my life to be taking this from an ex-girlfriend, and it all started on Christmas Day.
As I woke up on a beautiful sunny Christmas Day, she had the nerve to ask for the Wii back. After everything that I provided for her, she wanted it back. Wouldn't you think that the laptop was more than enough? I guess not. And to add to that, she has a boyfriend. So why not get your boyfriend to buy you a new Wii? And why have you been contacting me? for a few days, I didn't want anything to do with her, so I ignored her texts. Till one day, enough was enough. I told her the truth that I sold the Wii because I didn't want anything to do with her, and honestly, I don't want anything to do with her. And why should I want anything to do with her after she broke up with me, then she found a boyfriend within a month.
Some things like that don't happen regularly. And sorry if I'm still a bit bitter about it, but that made me a stronger person. Gave me a thicker skin, a stronger heart. After I told her that I sold the Wii, she said that she would take me to court and sue me, and that's how I knew that after all of these years, she's still the same snobby, selfish, high maintenance individual. A relationship is supposed to change you, but I guess in her case, it didn't. Anyways, when she texted me that, I simply replied with, "Do what you gotta do." I didn't care, like how I no longer cared for her the way I did before.
She later replied saying that she would sell the laptop I gave to her that was a birthday present given to me from my mother and all the tiffany jewelry I gave to her. That just showed me that she never cared about me, just about the gifts and the money. And she also said, "I hope that I never have to talk to you again." And I agreed with her. I replied simply by saying "likewise". That never felt so damn good to do.
I saw the light out of the darkness I was in, and it's leading me into the right direction.
A new direction of life...The Beginning of A New.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Saturday, November 21, 2009
A New Chapter In Life
A long relationship opened my eyes to what I needed to improve. I can list pages and pages of it, but I'm not going to do that. I would have to say that she was my greatest love, but unfortunately, things did not end up like a fairy-tale would usually end, "happily ever after", but instead, it ended up like a text book, you always learn something new out of it. I'm not going to do any bashing because no one needs that in their lives, and we have enough wars going on in this world, so why not promote peace.
I would have to admit that after the break-up, there were some hostel moments and saddened moments, but sometimes break-ups end that way. You can't let that moment give you thoughts of ending your life or thoughts of why you are still in this world because having negative connotations about yourself is not what God has intended for us. Humans are imperfect, full of trial and error, and if you say that you're perfect, you're wrong. Not one single person is. So with these imperfections, we must live with them. And with these trials and errors, we must learn from them. You are always learning something new in everyday life, so in a situation as in a break-up (for example), you're like a driver stuck in a dirt, bumpy road, but eventually, you'll get back on that smooth, asphalt or concrete road. Life is not meant to be like a walk in the park, otherwise, where would the challenge be?
Anyways, life is good...actually life is great! These past 4 days I have been waking up with the biggest, widest smiles on my brownish-yellow mustache having face. The Mohawk is no more, but I can always bring it back. I have grown into a strong-hearted man that thinks, like the Adidas slogan, "Impossible is Nothing." You look at the world today and the people that broke barriers and paved a future for us...the Manny Pacquiao's, the Barack Obama's, the Malcolm X's, the Martin Luther King, Jr.'s! But those are only a few mentioned. But back on topic, like a Keri Hilson song, "Just get back up when it knocks you down." Life is too precious to dwell, so be happy for everyday you live.
To my family (I consider friends as family), I never thanked you for saving my life.
Therefore, I'll leave you with a line from the film Forrest Gump: My momma always said, "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."
I would have to admit that after the break-up, there were some hostel moments and saddened moments, but sometimes break-ups end that way. You can't let that moment give you thoughts of ending your life or thoughts of why you are still in this world because having negative connotations about yourself is not what God has intended for us. Humans are imperfect, full of trial and error, and if you say that you're perfect, you're wrong. Not one single person is. So with these imperfections, we must live with them. And with these trials and errors, we must learn from them. You are always learning something new in everyday life, so in a situation as in a break-up (for example), you're like a driver stuck in a dirt, bumpy road, but eventually, you'll get back on that smooth, asphalt or concrete road. Life is not meant to be like a walk in the park, otherwise, where would the challenge be?
Anyways, life is good...actually life is great! These past 4 days I have been waking up with the biggest, widest smiles on my brownish-yellow mustache having face. The Mohawk is no more, but I can always bring it back. I have grown into a strong-hearted man that thinks, like the Adidas slogan, "Impossible is Nothing." You look at the world today and the people that broke barriers and paved a future for us...the Manny Pacquiao's, the Barack Obama's, the Malcolm X's, the Martin Luther King, Jr.'s! But those are only a few mentioned. But back on topic, like a Keri Hilson song, "Just get back up when it knocks you down." Life is too precious to dwell, so be happy for everyday you live.
To my family (I consider friends as family), I never thanked you for saving my life.
Therefore, I'll leave you with a line from the film Forrest Gump: My momma always said, "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Lack of Motivation
I need something to push me over the edge, something that'll drive me, get me motivated. I really should start getting myself to the basketball games earlier so I can help my team win. A bad habit I need to improve on...being punctual and on time, or better yet, early. I can do so much on this team if I just get that through my thick stubborn skull. How can you depend on someone if they miss half the game? A big mistake on my part. My teammates probably think that I don't really care about the team, and honestly, they're partly right to think that way.
This next upcoming game, I'll be more assertive, more aggressive, and I'll show them that I can be a leader by showing up early to work on my game and hopefully gain their respect back. There's much I need to work on within this upcoming week.
This next upcoming game, I'll be more assertive, more aggressive, and I'll show them that I can be a leader by showing up early to work on my game and hopefully gain their respect back. There's much I need to work on within this upcoming week.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
July 17, 2009
Today is the final day I'm here in the Philippines. Due to the storm in Baguio, it's been raining since yesterday. Some colleges have been suspended due to the rain and there's flooding on some parts of the road. The traffic isn't as bad, it's actually pretty clear.
I'll definitely be coming back next year. Hopefully I'll be done with school and ready to move on with life. We arrived at the airport, and ready to leave. I'll miss all my relatives. Time to depart.
So aside from checking in, my mom has some kind of irritation to her right eye. It's really red while the other eye is completely fine. I told her that it's pink eye, but she said she could fix it. Now we're going into quarintine because they're taking precaution to the other passengers that will be on board the flight. She's still arguing for better seats, but honestly I don't really care. I just want to get on the flight and get back home without being stressed. I always get stressed coming back.
I'm just waiting here till my mom gets her eye checked out by the doctor here at the airport. Listening to some music by 'Drake' to calm my nerves. I'm ready to come back home and ball like an animal. I'm always confident that I will succeed, otherwise you'll give up early.
Almost 20 minutes have passed. I think our flight might be postponed due to her eye irritation. If so, I guess that leaves me no choice to stay another day here. It's a possibility.
But fortunately, it will not be a possibility because my mom was cleared to board our flight. I just got done eating a special chicken siopao and 2 small enseymadas. Packed myself some Pringles in case I get hungry later on the flight. It's just a matter of time till we board Korean Airlines! I'm ready to eat more airplane food.
Tuesday, here in the Philippines, Kobe Bryant is making his rounds on his Nike Asia Tour. I should have extended my stay but I found out too late. I wants to pick up a pair of Nike Kobe IV gold medals, but they won't be out till tomorrow. Guess I'll have to pick them up when I get back to Cali, plus I still have to get David & Cheri a baby shower gift.
I decided that I just want to go to school in the Philippines. It'll give me a better chance for a better opportunity towards a goal of mine, which is playing professional ball. Can't wait to come back, quit my job, focus on school and playing ball before coming back to the Philippines. I'm done with work, officially! Time to work on hoopin and school.
Just landed at the Incheon Airport (4:50pm) aka ICN. I'm ready to do some shopping, hopefully pick up a fresh pair of gold Kobe iv's. It would make my trip that much better if they had them.
Just boarded flight KE011 to LAX. Bout to pick me up a pair of Kobe's when I get there. It's now about 8:01pm here in Incheon. I'm ready for the long long trip back to LA. Can't wait to come back home.
So the flight attentant that's sitting at te emergency exit thought I was Japanese. I guess it was the Onitsuka's I was wearing. Anyways, she's beautiful. I caught her name, S. E. Jung. I have to spit game at her. I wish I knew the Korean language.
I'm currently watching this Korean movie titled "More Than Blue". Kei, a man abandoned by his parents, and Cream, a woman wbi lost her family to a car accident, are partners who support each other. When Kei finds our that he has less than 200 days left to live, due to his illness, he starts looking for a man who could take care if Cream.
Within a matter of hours, of had this Korean dished called "Bitmap." who am I to complain, it's delicious! Ever since making eye contact with the stewardist, and having a small conversation with her, I have become infatuated with the Korean culture. Next will be learning to speak the language. My infatuation is limitless. "I wish I could ____ every girl in the world...", you can fill in the blank.
I'll definitely be coming back next year. Hopefully I'll be done with school and ready to move on with life. We arrived at the airport, and ready to leave. I'll miss all my relatives. Time to depart.
So aside from checking in, my mom has some kind of irritation to her right eye. It's really red while the other eye is completely fine. I told her that it's pink eye, but she said she could fix it. Now we're going into quarintine because they're taking precaution to the other passengers that will be on board the flight. She's still arguing for better seats, but honestly I don't really care. I just want to get on the flight and get back home without being stressed. I always get stressed coming back.
I'm just waiting here till my mom gets her eye checked out by the doctor here at the airport. Listening to some music by 'Drake' to calm my nerves. I'm ready to come back home and ball like an animal. I'm always confident that I will succeed, otherwise you'll give up early.
Almost 20 minutes have passed. I think our flight might be postponed due to her eye irritation. If so, I guess that leaves me no choice to stay another day here. It's a possibility.
But fortunately, it will not be a possibility because my mom was cleared to board our flight. I just got done eating a special chicken siopao and 2 small enseymadas. Packed myself some Pringles in case I get hungry later on the flight. It's just a matter of time till we board Korean Airlines! I'm ready to eat more airplane food.
Tuesday, here in the Philippines, Kobe Bryant is making his rounds on his Nike Asia Tour. I should have extended my stay but I found out too late. I wants to pick up a pair of Nike Kobe IV gold medals, but they won't be out till tomorrow. Guess I'll have to pick them up when I get back to Cali, plus I still have to get David & Cheri a baby shower gift.
I decided that I just want to go to school in the Philippines. It'll give me a better chance for a better opportunity towards a goal of mine, which is playing professional ball. Can't wait to come back, quit my job, focus on school and playing ball before coming back to the Philippines. I'm done with work, officially! Time to work on hoopin and school.
Just landed at the Incheon Airport (4:50pm) aka ICN. I'm ready to do some shopping, hopefully pick up a fresh pair of gold Kobe iv's. It would make my trip that much better if they had them.
Just boarded flight KE011 to LAX. Bout to pick me up a pair of Kobe's when I get there. It's now about 8:01pm here in Incheon. I'm ready for the long long trip back to LA. Can't wait to come back home.
So the flight attentant that's sitting at te emergency exit thought I was Japanese. I guess it was the Onitsuka's I was wearing. Anyways, she's beautiful. I caught her name, S. E. Jung. I have to spit game at her. I wish I knew the Korean language.
I'm currently watching this Korean movie titled "More Than Blue". Kei, a man abandoned by his parents, and Cream, a woman wbi lost her family to a car accident, are partners who support each other. When Kei finds our that he has less than 200 days left to live, due to his illness, he starts looking for a man who could take care if Cream.
Within a matter of hours, of had this Korean dished called "Bitmap." who am I to complain, it's delicious! Ever since making eye contact with the stewardist, and having a small conversation with her, I have become infatuated with the Korean culture. Next will be learning to speak the language. My infatuation is limitless. "I wish I could ____ every girl in the world...", you can fill in the blank.
July 15, 2009
I picked up a silicone case for my phone after seeing all the scratches that have appeared on the back of my phone. It's was only Php 150, which turns into about $3-4 American dollars. Pretty cheap that I'll probably purchase another one. All they had was a clear skin because the only black skin was damaged and the original skin they had was way too expensive selling at Php 700, which is still kind of cheap at around $10-11 or so.
We are on our way to Divisoria to purchase more items fora bargain price. So far, I haven't had the opportunity to spend my money due to my mom butting in a paying for me. It's cool and all, but I have my own money.
So we went to MOA today so I can pick up a fresh pair of Nike Kobe IV Gold Medals, but I was disappointed by the Nike store, of all stores bot carrying the product saying that they're not available. But the night ended with delicious Halo Halo from Razon's. The ice is so soft, and the milk is great! I love the milk here, it's sweet.
After Razon's, I had to check out the Hooters here. I got 2 bottles of San Miguel Premium beer. The taste reminds me of Stella Artois back home. Very very similar, probably might even be the same beer. I guess my cousin Alyssa is "lasing" translates to drunk in English. But the girls there just weren't the same as they were back home. It's weird spitting game with family around, especially with your mom. Haha, but I did it anyways.
Now it's time to head back home and rest. 2 more days till I return to San Diego. I'm not ready to come back yet. There's much to do here before I come back. Places to see, people to meet, a basketball contract to sign. I'm determined. When I come back home, all I'll be doing is working out and hoopin. I'm gonna be the best and bring international hoopin from the Cali to the Philippines.
We are on our way to Divisoria to purchase more items fora bargain price. So far, I haven't had the opportunity to spend my money due to my mom butting in a paying for me. It's cool and all, but I have my own money.
So we went to MOA today so I can pick up a fresh pair of Nike Kobe IV Gold Medals, but I was disappointed by the Nike store, of all stores bot carrying the product saying that they're not available. But the night ended with delicious Halo Halo from Razon's. The ice is so soft, and the milk is great! I love the milk here, it's sweet.
After Razon's, I had to check out the Hooters here. I got 2 bottles of San Miguel Premium beer. The taste reminds me of Stella Artois back home. Very very similar, probably might even be the same beer. I guess my cousin Alyssa is "lasing" translates to drunk in English. But the girls there just weren't the same as they were back home. It's weird spitting game with family around, especially with your mom. Haha, but I did it anyways.
Now it's time to head back home and rest. 2 more days till I return to San Diego. I'm not ready to come back yet. There's much to do here before I come back. Places to see, people to meet, a basketball contract to sign. I'm determined. When I come back home, all I'll be doing is working out and hoopin. I'm gonna be the best and bring international hoopin from the Cali to the Philippines.
July 11, 2009
Clubbing at Engineering. I know, weird club to call it, but it is what it is. We happened to cross the governor of Illocos @ 2:49am in the morning. What a crazy night. I can see the look of this one chick eyeing me from across the floor. I paid her no attention, taking small glimpses here and there. She came up to me at the end of the night...
July 10, 2009
Today I woke up with back pains. Not back spasms, but because of a sun burn from yesterdays swim at Currimao. It was beautiful! It ended up raining as we left, but the rain felt so good. Like a massage from a shower head you would get from your bathroom shower, but just all over your body.
Well, I wasn't as flexible as I normally would be. I slept most of the day as the rain kept pouring down. As the rain ceased, it was about 4-4:30 in the afternoon and we went outside for some exercise. We played basketball till the sun went down and the dusk appeared. It was a good workout as I needed it after several days of just eating, sleeping and watching tv. I took a much needed shower after sweating. Not it's time to eat again, but I'm still full from the Shakey's pizza and the chicken noodle soup I had earlier for lunch.
Engineering bar & karaoke & videoke
Well, I wasn't as flexible as I normally would be. I slept most of the day as the rain kept pouring down. As the rain ceased, it was about 4-4:30 in the afternoon and we went outside for some exercise. We played basketball till the sun went down and the dusk appeared. It was a good workout as I needed it after several days of just eating, sleeping and watching tv. I took a much needed shower after sweating. Not it's time to eat again, but I'm still full from the Shakey's pizza and the chicken noodle soup I had earlier for lunch.
Engineering bar & karaoke & videoke
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