It's Decided

After much decision and long time discussions with myself, I have decided to get a tattoo. a half sleeve. It's been a long time coming and the art work is gonna be done by none other than my boy Kristian. We've been good friends for some time now and I've always had an admiration for his work. I requested that he incorporate something Filipino in there, along with something SD related. I embrace my heritage and the city I grew up in. There will never be an SD and another person like me. Less than two months and counting.

6.9 Magnified Earthquake

Wow, according to the Associated Press, no feeling this has been felt in 18 or so years. That was the first real quake I have really felt. At first, I thought my little daschund was moving my bed. Then I saw my tv shake and the mirror on my dresser shake, and I knew it was an earthquake. That's something I'll remember for a lifetime.

The Evolution

It's always good to reminisce with good friends that you've known all of your life. But when they talk about the past tense, the things you don't care to hear for, you ponder on a way to get out of it, but you listen anyways. My closest friend, Kristian was talking about my former girlfriend and putting her on a pedestal. And knowing my ex best, she's feeds off of that. And as much as I respect her hustle, I can't feed into her Narcissistic ego. The power of inflation can ruin a person, and the lack of being humble for the opportunities that arise. I've always put myself before others because that's the type of individual I am. Anyways, back on the subject, I never really enjoyed it when my good friend talks about my ex. I've mentioned to him that I've moved out, and yet he still wants to bring it up. My heart misses the old days with her, but the right thing to do is move on.

So when I was speaking with Allan, he seemed to be really well off, although he does to seem to always talking about money, but that's his motivation. To his their own and I can't hate on an individual that's after the paper. And he is another one of my good friends. He told me, and I take this to heart, "6.6 million dollars is where you can live comfortable". And if that's his hustle, his goal, then that shall be mine also. Also had a respect for his hustle.

To be continued...

Good & Bad of Being Sick..

I hate the feeling of being sick: having symptoms of runny nose, congested throat, nasty coughs containing flem.

But the good thing about being sick: you get to miss work or leave work early, and enjoy a beautiful Sunday!

Happy Easter by the way y'all!!

So What's Going On??

Work has been one of my top priorities as of late. There's no way I can make enough time for a girl, and I feel really bad because I feel like there's one waiting for me in the back seat. But I have to let her go for the benefit of the both of us. I can't let her hold me back, and I can't let her just sit there and wait for me.

Anyways, there has been a lot of news about earthquakes all over the globe. The first a devastating one in Haiti, the next in Chile, one that happened here in Julian, another in Turkey, and then another one in Santiago, Chile. When an earthquake happens, there's nothing we can do to prevent it. So we should be prepared for the worst. 2010 is a year of preparation, and the year of the earthquakes.

Off the subject, I've been searching high and low for these shoes and I've finally got them in my arsenal. Breakin necks on the court with my Nike Kobe V Bruce Lee's and gonna be breakin necks with the Jordan True Blue III's. Now, after acquiring these purchases, I will continue to stack paper as high as I can.

Also got a few games for my Playstation 3. Fight Night Round 4 and NBA 2K10. And also got a new controller..finally! So now, everything I wanted is now complete. I don't play my Playstation much, but now I have a reason to with these new games.

But, I'm still going to make time for reading, as it's been one of my passions lately. I know, I know, I'm a book nerd. But reading books help exercise my mind, and I feel that it hasn't been exercised enough. Too much surfing the web could strain your eyes because your eyes are fixated at the computer screen for so long.

"Just do you, and I'll do me."

I never understood it until all the hardships.

Game.. Blouses.

Another great game for Blouses tonight. It was a team contribution and everyone produced great numbers. The highlight of the night was the last play where Coop dunked it. That's right, Coop dunked it! Two hand slam coming off a fast break. I knew when the ball got into his hands that he was going to do something amazing with it. Player of the game tonight was Jose! Doing work out there and even got an and 1. We opened up the game very close, but the fire power was too much for them to handle and pulled away and never looked back. We blew them out by like 20-30 points, somewhere around that area. When I'm on the court, I'm a new person. My aggression, my persona, all changed. When I'm on the court, I'm competitive, scrappy, serious, and free.

We've been playing with 5 players: Myself, Kargas, Coop, Jose & Soyra. The thing about our squad is that we know our positions, and we can play multiple positions if we wanted to. Our strengths overpower our weaknesses, and we don't have too many of those. Playing with only 5 people is kind of tiring, but I'd rather have that knowing that everyone will get the same amount of playing time and not fighting for minutes.

A break down of all the players: Jonathan Kargas is our C. Also he can play SG/SF/PF. He'll play down low, and on the peremiter. Very versatile player. Adam Cooper is our SF/PF, but mainly our PF. Coop is our scrapper, doing the dirty work and grabbing the boards. He's what every team needs. A vital part of our team. Jose Gonzales is our SF/PF. He holds his own. Sharp shooter with the deep ball. Big body down low. The sleeper. And Soyra Hailemariam is our PG/SG, but mainly our PG. He can handle the ball, create for himself, create for others, pretty much anything. His basketball IQ is perfect for our team. Everyone on our team has a pretty advanced basketball IQ. We work hard and more importantly, we work together.

Game.. Blouses

The Beginnning of A New

So if I were your boyfriend, and I helped you get the things you wanted, wouldn't you be doing the same things for me? Money doesn't buy you love, and I should have realized the whole thing years ago. But I didn't care about the money. I cared about her. I made some stupid mistakes, but if you truly loved me, you'd help me instead of leaving me to fend for myself. But I want to thank you for doing that to me because you opened up my eyes to the whole world. I thought of you as my whole world, that's why I did all of those things for you. Buying the things you wanted, supporting all of your decisions to make you happy, surprising you with a painted and full furnished room, a laptop given to you from me that was a birthday present given to me from my mom.

I'm glad that you broke the relationship off because I grew stronger. I know that I shouldn't have been flirting with her, but you didn't help me when you decided to sleep with not 1, but 2 guys. And to see you kissing on another person's neck other than mine, you should be ashamed of what you did to me. You're not the only person that knows how to flirt. But the funny thing was, I was the one that took all of the criticism, and not you. I guess I was afraid of your feisty personality, but this time I had to make a stand for myself. I have been up with too much in my life to be taking this from an ex-girlfriend, and it all started on Christmas Day.

As I woke up on a beautiful sunny Christmas Day, she had the nerve to ask for the Wii back. After everything that I provided for her, she wanted it back. Wouldn't you think that the laptop was more than enough? I guess not. And to add to that, she has a boyfriend. So why not get your boyfriend to buy you a new Wii? And why have you been contacting me? for a few days, I didn't want anything to do with her, so I ignored her texts. Till one day, enough was enough. I told her the truth that I sold the Wii because I didn't want anything to do with her, and honestly, I don't want anything to do with her. And why should I want anything to do with her after she broke up with me, then she found a boyfriend within a month.

Some things like that don't happen regularly. And sorry if I'm still a bit bitter about it, but that made me a stronger person. Gave me a thicker skin, a stronger heart. After I told her that I sold the Wii, she said that she would take me to court and sue me, and that's how I knew that after all of these years, she's still the same snobby, selfish, high maintenance individual. A relationship is supposed to change you, but I guess in her case, it didn't. Anyways, when she texted me that, I simply replied with, "Do what you gotta do." I didn't care, like how I no longer cared for her the way I did before.

She later replied saying that she would sell the laptop I gave to her that was a birthday present given to me from my mother and all the tiffany jewelry I gave to her. That just showed me that she never cared about me, just about the gifts and the money. And she also said, "I hope that I never have to talk to you again." And I agreed with her. I replied simply by saying "likewise". That never felt so damn good to do.

I saw the light out of the darkness I was in, and it's leading me into the right direction.

A new direction of life...The Beginning of A New.