An BOOtacular Weekend

It was a nice weekend, besides being sick most of the time. At first, I was trying to go out for Halloween, but I didn't want to miss my baby's exhibition performance at Monster Bash 2008. I'm glad that I got to go out, and it was worth getting even more sick that I was. The following day at work, all my manager's were noticing it, so I asked to leave about 2 hours early, and I did. And now I'm "Well Rested"



Got the same Orisue shirt in white & red by the way.

Anyways, here's a couple pictures to cap off the weekend:


Jaina's Boss, Sin's pre-birthday party.


My baby and I at Monster Bash 2008.


My boy's Kris (left) & Luke (right), and homegirl Ianne (middle).


Ianne & Luke.


Kris & Ianne.

It was a jiggy weekend.

Very batty! I was a pilot by the way.

Unpredictable

Much of my characteristics are based on my unpredictability, if that's even a word. There's some decisions that I make on the fly, but I really need to think before I really commit myself and finalize my decision.

And honestly life isn't about ME anymore, it's about US. I have to think more on what's best for our life and not my life. That's how life is when you're in a commitment. You have to commit and make decisions based on what's best for the both of us. With that said, I haven't really took that into consideration. Sometimes, I seem to forget to consult and discuss with my girl about the decisions I make.

Therefore, I have vowed to talk and discuss anything with my girl because honestly, I don't want to hide anything from her. If she opened up her life to me, then why can't I. Maybe it's an insecurity of mine, or maybe I choose not to, or maybe I just don't care. Well, my lack of initiating conversation and opening up my heart fully is probably because I don't want my heart broken again. But hey, life isn't easy, but I'll do whatever it takes to penetrate that force field that's repelling me from opening up.

Sometimes, changes in life are good, but not all are considered that way. Hopefully this change is for the best.

It's a hard knock life, seriously!

Just a couple of celebrations coming up:
Dexter & Jared's birthday @ On Broadway, Downtown this Friday.
(Sorry ya'll, I can't make it out due to work.)

I Feel Like Such A Disappointment

Since taking off this semester, I feel like I shouldn't have because it feels like I can't relax. I feel like I'm pressured into getting back to school. I know I should have been done 2 years or a year ago, but there was a certain path I had taken where I was trying to figure out what I really wanted to do. I feel like I put myself in a cellar with no light, and I feel like getting a degree is my only way out. I know my priorities, and they're going to be a bit tweaked. I feel like I'm drifting away and wasting my life away. I need to stop thinking about myself and more about us. If I'm looking towards a future with my future wifey, then I can't just think about myself. I'm a mess and I need to break out of the black hole and into the light! Sometimes I feel like leaving this world, but that would be the easy way out. Life isn't easy, and its never meant to be. We can only work hard to where we feel comfortable at being. Life is a challenge.

Education is the future and shouldn't be taken for granted. I feel like the biggest disappointment to not only my parents, my gf, and her parents, but to everyone who sees potential in me. I appreciate all your words of wisdom and all the support. I could have never been so motivated to graduate and get my life in track.

I promise to graduate with a college degree.

Real Jiggy Over The Weekend

It was my first time being in Vegas since I have turned 21 and it was a blast. Although my trip wasn't as extravagant as my girl's, I still had a great time! But there's much to tell, but hey, it's Vegas right so what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. That's just the way it goes. You kinda had to be there to see it all. Nough said, Vegas was JIGGY! Get with the lingo cuz it's gon be a fad once more! Contemplating on getting new art work on my body. First, working on a new job. Need one fast because 6679 is getting old quick. Need something new and exciting and not to mention challenging. "I need money!" as 50 would say. I need to hustle and get on the grind. Well, back to the life filled with work and soon school. I decided to change majors once more and relocate into political science. I figured that if I were to moi. The military, then political science would be a perfect major foe me. I've had my mind made up and that's what I want to do. I just want the degree so I coils move on and start a new chapter in my life.

Sorry for being MIA for so long, but I have been so busy that I couldn't keep up with everything. Hopefully I won't be enticed to only write in her every so often. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up daily.

I will never quit at something I want so badly even if it doesn't come easy. If it were easy, then where's the challenge. And challenges are apart of life and the everyday situations. You feel me?!

"I will triumph and succeed!"

Today is NOT the Day.

For some reason, I feel like tearing my own head off. I don't really feel like talking much, and it seems like being @ work is going to make my day even worser than it already is now. Why do I feel this way? Maybe the thought of terrible news or the thought of a person who you thought was close to suddenly back stabbing you in the back. Happiness is hard to come by nowadays. And even when I look at the person who I confide in, my princess, my happiness, I can't find my way to the light where happiness is. I thought about calling in sick, but I would only make it harder for my fellow co-worker(s). F this sad day. I wish I could sleep the whole day away.

Off too reality.

Living Day By Day

Sometimes I think about how good of a life I should be living and how much I put myself in a situation of where I'm struggling to survive. I know that I don't have all the money in the world, and I can't splurge on things that I don't need. But if you don't like it, then I'm sorry. I'm trying to be the best person I can be. But my life has changed, and I have met the girl of my dreams. I'll put her before anyone else, even myself. That's just what "love" does to you. Being selfish can sometimes make you unhappy, and I'm just living how I'm living. Take me for who I am. If you can't appreciate me, then that's a risk I'll have to take.

Timeless

If you can't afford to get something you want, then you obviously can't buy it, and should be left at that. If you can have a sense of self-restraint, then you can control yourself from purchasing things that are not practical, and you can budget your money and you're flow of money.

I'm glad I got my credit card done and over with because it was beginning to ruin my life. It was at a point of $2000, and it was getting out of control. And now, everything is where I want it to be and I will do everything in my power to stay away from the so called "Credit Cards."

I think I have built enough credit as it is. Enough to falter and enough to purchase necessities in the future such as a home of my own or any type of transportation. As soon as I get my other credit card paid off, I will resign from The Home Depot and move onto something bigger and better, or better yet, just relax and focus on whatever I will be looking forward to in the future.

Besides facing the realism of the real world, I have been laying low and out of sight. I have been constantly hanging out with my girl because honestly, I love being around here. And every now and then, I'll hang out with my friends and chill and play ball, or play some Wii and any type of video games available.

This is really off the subject, but I'll be painting my room very shortly, hopeful before the beginning of the new semester. Pictures will be coming up in the near future, I promise. And this time I'll have them posted with the post itself instead of climaxing and provoking your excitement towards a post with pictures.

Sometimes, we just need pictures to go along with the story, to keep you interested, to give you an idea of what you're explaining, or better yet, to keep you interested.

Writing gives me a sense of relief towards whatever I am feeling whether it's good or bad. It's helps me build off some steam, or give you some exciting news about how great of a day it was.

And truthfully speaking, I can't complain about life. It's treating me very well, and you can only live life how you can. If you complain, then all your life, you'll be complaining. So don't put extra stress, just relax because there will be another day to arise.

Respect and love thy neighbor.

-Jules