I Feel Like Such A Disappointment

Since taking off this semester, I feel like I shouldn't have because it feels like I can't relax. I feel like I'm pressured into getting back to school. I know I should have been done 2 years or a year ago, but there was a certain path I had taken where I was trying to figure out what I really wanted to do. I feel like I put myself in a cellar with no light, and I feel like getting a degree is my only way out. I know my priorities, and they're going to be a bit tweaked. I feel like I'm drifting away and wasting my life away. I need to stop thinking about myself and more about us. If I'm looking towards a future with my future wifey, then I can't just think about myself. I'm a mess and I need to break out of the black hole and into the light! Sometimes I feel like leaving this world, but that would be the easy way out. Life isn't easy, and its never meant to be. We can only work hard to where we feel comfortable at being. Life is a challenge.

Education is the future and shouldn't be taken for granted. I feel like the biggest disappointment to not only my parents, my gf, and her parents, but to everyone who sees potential in me. I appreciate all your words of wisdom and all the support. I could have never been so motivated to graduate and get my life in track.

I promise to graduate with a college degree.

Real Jiggy Over The Weekend

It was my first time being in Vegas since I have turned 21 and it was a blast. Although my trip wasn't as extravagant as my girl's, I still had a great time! But there's much to tell, but hey, it's Vegas right so what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. That's just the way it goes. You kinda had to be there to see it all. Nough said, Vegas was JIGGY! Get with the lingo cuz it's gon be a fad once more! Contemplating on getting new art work on my body. First, working on a new job. Need one fast because 6679 is getting old quick. Need something new and exciting and not to mention challenging. "I need money!" as 50 would say. I need to hustle and get on the grind. Well, back to the life filled with work and soon school. I decided to change majors once more and relocate into political science. I figured that if I were to moi. The military, then political science would be a perfect major foe me. I've had my mind made up and that's what I want to do. I just want the degree so I coils move on and start a new chapter in my life.

Sorry for being MIA for so long, but I have been so busy that I couldn't keep up with everything. Hopefully I won't be enticed to only write in her every so often. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up daily.

I will never quit at something I want so badly even if it doesn't come easy. If it were easy, then where's the challenge. And challenges are apart of life and the everyday situations. You feel me?!

"I will triumph and succeed!"

Today is NOT the Day.

For some reason, I feel like tearing my own head off. I don't really feel like talking much, and it seems like being @ work is going to make my day even worser than it already is now. Why do I feel this way? Maybe the thought of terrible news or the thought of a person who you thought was close to suddenly back stabbing you in the back. Happiness is hard to come by nowadays. And even when I look at the person who I confide in, my princess, my happiness, I can't find my way to the light where happiness is. I thought about calling in sick, but I would only make it harder for my fellow co-worker(s). F this sad day. I wish I could sleep the whole day away.

Off too reality.

Living Day By Day

Sometimes I think about how good of a life I should be living and how much I put myself in a situation of where I'm struggling to survive. I know that I don't have all the money in the world, and I can't splurge on things that I don't need. But if you don't like it, then I'm sorry. I'm trying to be the best person I can be. But my life has changed, and I have met the girl of my dreams. I'll put her before anyone else, even myself. That's just what "love" does to you. Being selfish can sometimes make you unhappy, and I'm just living how I'm living. Take me for who I am. If you can't appreciate me, then that's a risk I'll have to take.

Timeless

If you can't afford to get something you want, then you obviously can't buy it, and should be left at that. If you can have a sense of self-restraint, then you can control yourself from purchasing things that are not practical, and you can budget your money and you're flow of money.

I'm glad I got my credit card done and over with because it was beginning to ruin my life. It was at a point of $2000, and it was getting out of control. And now, everything is where I want it to be and I will do everything in my power to stay away from the so called "Credit Cards."

I think I have built enough credit as it is. Enough to falter and enough to purchase necessities in the future such as a home of my own or any type of transportation. As soon as I get my other credit card paid off, I will resign from The Home Depot and move onto something bigger and better, or better yet, just relax and focus on whatever I will be looking forward to in the future.

Besides facing the realism of the real world, I have been laying low and out of sight. I have been constantly hanging out with my girl because honestly, I love being around here. And every now and then, I'll hang out with my friends and chill and play ball, or play some Wii and any type of video games available.

This is really off the subject, but I'll be painting my room very shortly, hopeful before the beginning of the new semester. Pictures will be coming up in the near future, I promise. And this time I'll have them posted with the post itself instead of climaxing and provoking your excitement towards a post with pictures.

Sometimes, we just need pictures to go along with the story, to keep you interested, to give you an idea of what you're explaining, or better yet, to keep you interested.

Writing gives me a sense of relief towards whatever I am feeling whether it's good or bad. It's helps me build off some steam, or give you some exciting news about how great of a day it was.

And truthfully speaking, I can't complain about life. It's treating me very well, and you can only live life how you can. If you complain, then all your life, you'll be complaining. So don't put extra stress, just relax because there will be another day to arise.

Respect and love thy neighbor.

-Jules

How I Spent My Day Off

So here's how my day consisted. I didn't really get much sleep the previous night because I was talking to my girl who is currently in the Philippines for vacation. I took a brief nap and woke up early at around 7AM. I kinda just laid on the couch and watched a bit of tv. About 2 hours later, I decided to get my lazy butt off the couch and do some laundry laying around the house. I washed everything from the covers on the couch, loose laundry hanging around in rooms, and my pile of laundry that I leave by the dining table. I even washed my black Pumas I used to mow the lawn.

And yes, I mowed the lawn. It looks immaculate! Besides all the brown spots scattered around the lawn. After finishing up the front yard, I cleaned up the backyard and swept up all the leaves and picked up Rocky's gifts that he lays around the yard.

After all of that, I hopped in the shower for a much needed cleansing. It was very refreshing. I was supposed to go to facevalue with Ulster, but he over slept, as I did also. Anyways, I hopped out the shower and folded all of the washed clothes. After that, I traveled to Ikea to return an extra book shelf that I had purchased.

I haven't eatten the whole day so I picked up 2 hot dogs, a bag of chips, a soda, and a cinnamon bun before I traveled to facevalue to pick up a shirt.

So as I got to facevalue, I talked to Vince and met his best bud, Emily. She has a great friendly personality and that's what I love about walking into facevalue. Everyone is always ALWAYS very nice about everything. No signs of bad energy. Well, we talked about his trip back home to Seattle and him speaking in front of college students. Also, they didn't have the shirt that I wanted provided by NHTVSN (NightVision) of La Forge from Star Trek. The shirt is dope, and my buddy Vince ordered me a shirt from them since they are here locally, or what he says somewhat.



I also can't wait for my Undftd "Boston Sucks" shirt to come in. And by the way, Lakers won game 3, so the series is 2-1 in favor of Boston. It was a hard fought battle and will only get harder. I can't wait to be rockin' this around the neighborhood. And sorry Bostononian's if you are offended. I just grew up a Lakers fan, that's just how it is.





I'm gonna be rockin' this shirt till the day I die.

I'm also anticipating these Nike AM1 Safari 87 inspired. I can't wait.



Also anticipating these: Nike Air Force 1 Hi "1World". It's the one on the left. I want to rock these when I play ball.



My most recent pick up to play ball in. In reminscent of the Space Jam XI's and a mix of the Nike Air Shake Ndestrukts and the Nike Air Barkley's.

KEEP IT ON THE HUSH!! DON'T SAY NOTHING!! (*edited)

Again, It's been quite a while since I've last written in here. To be exact, I believe it was a post on my b-day.

Well, since then, I have been working on a "top secret" project for the past 2-3 weeks. And finally, I could say that "I am completely FINISHED!! WOOHOO!!"

And I shall provide pictures of the finished product. Excuse the poor quality of the pictures as I did not have a real camera, so as a result, I had to use my iPhone instead.

I should have realized to shoot "before" pictures to see how big a difference it was, but next time, if another project shall arise, I will know what to do.

Anyhow, here is a brief description of what I did for the past 2-3 weeks. First, I removed all of the popcorn off the ceiling including inside her closet. Next, I painted the ceiling white to freshen up the room because the previous color of off-white was NOT going to work with the color of the paint, which was resembling to a Tiffany Blue.

So after carefully painting the ceiling, I then painted her walls with the Tiffany blue paint that we got from my work. Without using any tape, I carefully painted the edges not hitting the white trimming on the bottom and the white ceiling. I was able to perform this task with very very minimal mistakes.

Then, I removed all of her clothes in her closet and painted the inside walls so that it doesn't look sloppy. I'm a perfectionist so I wanted everything to it's entirity.

So after finishing up the walls, I assembled all of the furniture that was purchased at Ikea. I purchased 2 Billy bookcases that will serve it's purpose with a twist of the addition of photo frames and awards. The original color was white, but with a strict plan, I spray painted the bookcases black. It took me about 2 days to complete since I had to let them dry and re-spray all the spots that I missed.

After completing the spray painting of the bookshelves, I placed the finished products to be placed in the room. These two bookshelves are located in the right corners of the room with the bed in between.

Also, I spray painted the bed black, as it's original color was a natural maple since I was on a strict description of having all the furniture black.

After that, I had to assembled a Malm dresser bought at Ikea. I then transfered all of her clothes from her previous dresser into the new dresser. There was no need to spray paint since the furniture already comes in a black color. Thank God for that because spray painting is no fun. All of the fumes would get in and on my nose and especially all of my face. But it in the end, it was all worth it.

Next, I put all of the clothes I took out of the closet, and returned them back into the closet. That took me about an hour since she has so so much! She's a girl, what do you expect?!

After completing that task, I, and the help of my good buddy Dexter put together the Billy bookcase, which will serve as a shoe rack display for her heels and boots. And this bookcase came in a black-brown color. She really wanted this in black, but to be honest with you, you can't really tell since it's a very dark mix. So I decided not to paint it since it looks good as it is. I added an extension to the bookcase and a couple of shelves to fit more heels on it.

I then displayed all of her heels on the bookcase and added the addition of two spotlights located at the top of the shelf. This was an idea that was not really in the plans but I decided to do anyways because it would make the display of the shoes that much better. And honestly, it makes it so so much better!

After all of the, I transfered whatever was left from her drawers into plastic bags and put them in her already stuffed closet. I hid them behind her clothes.

Now everything Looks great, and I can't wait to see the look on her face. It's going to be awesome! I wish I could be there to see the look on her face, but she'll be suprised to see what I did to her room. Just as her original plan, but altered a bit. But still, everything went as planned to her exact diagram she drew out.

DON'T FORGET, THAT THIS IS A SECRET PROJECT THAT I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON THAT SHE HAS NO CLUE ABOUT. **AND IF YOU WANT A MAKE OVER IN YOUR ROOM, MY SERVICES ARE AVAILABLE...FOR A PRICE OF COURSE.**

[edit:6/10]I can't forget the help of my friends: Jared, David and Ulster for helping me lift the old furniture out of her room. Without you guys, I would be straining my back and calling in sick to work because of it.

[edit:6/10]Here are a couple of pictures: